I had to put the car back together just becasuse i needed it for a job i had lined up and for going to truck school.

The Company i have worked for over 12 years is not doing to good i have done more then my fair share to help them out. Took 20% decress with 3 year hold on pay only to now have them dealing with back tax probs.
But when you have your paychecks bonce and 2 more in your hand that you can't cash it gets to be a pain.

Now there trying to stay open and i have not jumped ship with them but at this rate there is not much i can do. I dont want to quit but if i find something else i will go else were. I have been trying to get my truck lisence for tha last wile and all i get is one snag after another. Car was a setback. It did make me very frustrated to have it back together then have to take it apart over and over.

But right now the things that meen the most is a roof over my kids heads.
I spent money i had to pay for test i need to do on my son.
I could not give him some of the things he wanted and trust me i feel like shit when i feel like i have failed. I could not let probs i have roll over on a little kid. SO he got some stuff but not anywere near what i would have liked to get him. Now i make it 5 more days get past that b4 i can worrie about anything else.

MY daughte is older she knows things are bad she knows when TV is cut off and dont complane about it. She knows no mater how bad things get she is not forgot about and things will get better. She went as far to ask my parents get her jacket becasue she didn;t want to tell me she needed a new one.

Made me feel like shit.